Holding on to broken dreams

I'm standing at the door

Tryin to find the strength to stand

Just one moment more

All my smiles are stripped away

I'm barely hanging on

Jesus take me in Your arms

Before my hope is gone

So let the waves crash over me

My God is so much bigger than this storm

So what am I supposed to do

Just curl up and die?

Raise my fist into the air

Demanding to know why

I have learned throughout the years

That You always know best

So I will hold onto Your hand

And face what comes next

So let the waves crash over me

My God is so much bigger than this storm

So let the waves crash over me

Me and my God will dance on through this storm

We'll dance on through this storm

Find it in you

Wrap the cure
Sell it to me
Help me survive
Addiction so free
I breathe this in
Agony breathes out
All freedoms end
There is no doubt
Exchanging chains
One for another
Breaking free of this
Still chained forever
Beneath dark eyes
Fear is deep
Silently waiting
For my eternal sleep
Wasting my time
On flying away
No coming back down
Will things ever change?
You can't set me free
You have no cure
What the answer is
I'm still not sure
But I won't find it in you
I won't find it in you


Write the cure
Smile at me
Hold out your hand
To set me free
Pick up the book
Beat me with it again
Force the truth
I find no end
You have no words
To ease this pain
Close your mouth
This has no end
Crawling back
To judgmental eyes
All the while
Ignoring my cries
Your truth can't set me free
You have no cure
What the answer is
I'm still not sure
But I won't find it in you
I won't find it in you

Drops of water

This morning, as I was attending to my ritual of waking up, I was bent over the sink washing my face. Still groggy and not entirely lucid, my mind was especially bent on wandering. I splashed a handful of water on my face and waited as usual for the cold water to take its effect. Water droplets dripped off my face and vanished down the drain. Then my mind wandered. Stretching my fingers, I allowed the stream of water to flow over them, then held my hand up and studied it. I was fascinated by the way the water traced its way down my hand and wrist. I began to think about humans and our life on earth. The bible states that were a merely a mist, coming and rapidly dispersing. I compared this to the water swirling down the drain. The drops are there for a split second, then disappear. I am a drop of water. A tiny life source in a waterfall of power. Yet God sees me. I am a mere drop of life. Yet God treasures me. I shut the water off, letting the silence blanket my thoughts, struck by the realization I was making. It made me feel so small and puny. It made me realize how unworthy I am. How amazing it is that God, so powerful and glorious, notices a drop of water in a vast ocean. I find it incredible. It’s almost absurd to me. I am so blessed. Only God could treasure every drop of water.

Was my home

Weeping, crying, I can hear
I can taste your every fear
Haunted by your endless screams
Leaking sorrow through my dreams
Placing hands against the door
As you lay weeping on the floor
So helpless to take you in my arms
So helpless to shield you from harm
The demons come and rip you away
I reach for your hand but you slip away
Holding you as you scream and shake
Dying as you slowly break
This is a battle I cannot fight
Watching as you vanish into night
A hollowed self, nothing the same
No resemblence, not even the name
Who are you, where is she?
This isnt the way its supposed to be
She's gone forever, dead inside
I couldn't save, even though I tried
Losing everything I've ever known
She was everything, she was my home

Falling down
I have no grasp
Darkness has come
To take me at last
Shattered hope
Pieces of glass
Haunting demons
Hidden in the past
Broken dreams
I find no rest
Crushed beneath
This weight on my chest
Left alone
This growing hate
Left alone
Pondering my fate

Screaming out loud
Falling to my knees
Tears pouring down
Losing everything
Stretching my hands
Up towards the sky
Begging for You
To hear my cry
So much pain
I've never know
Oh God I'm begging
Don't leave me alone
Don't leave alone